Me wondering what the hell had happened~
Dia dah pergi. He left, He went to umrah. Taw semalam,itupon sebab ternampak post dia kat newsfeed. Kalau tak alamatnye sampai bila la baru aku nak taw. Sedih. Sebab tiba-tiba terpikir
" Kalau kitorang still kawan mesti dia akan habaq kat aku awal-awal. And akan tanya nak apa-apa tak or nak doakan apa-apa tak kat sana.."
Tapi tu kalau kitorang still kawan. Tapi ni memang dah putus kot prsahabatan tu. Semalam cakap kat Kajai. Aku mintak dia doakan SS selamat sampai dan balik, sebab aku tak nak watkan. Terasa tak sampai hati ni. (huhhh)..
Lagipon, doa seorang sahabat tu kan makbul... Tapi aku bukan kawan kau dah kan. So..paham-paham sendiri lah~ Anyway , jai cakap dia nak gak slowtalk ngan SS untuk dpt the truth. And aku skali lagi menipu diri sendiri with saying
" Sukeatila kau nak buat apa. Aku terasa macam tak nak taw je da truth"
I should get an award for being such a brilliant actress~ Tak ke rase macam tuh. Jai marah kata aku ni suka menipu diri sendiri sebab dia taw aku nak sangat taw kenape... Tapi kadang-kadang kena mnipu diri sendiri so that kita tak akan sakit aty....right?
Sungguh aku tak taw~ Mane aku nak taw... Aku tataw.. Losing a friend hurts..but losing a friend without knowing why hurts more~ Sebab kau tak taw sape puncanya.... Terasa macam nak anggap tak pernah kenal p0on SS tu.. URghhhhhH!
Hey bro, lemme tell you something, I never meant to hurt you, I never wanted to end this friendship. It kills me to see you being friends with Jai . To hear all those stories about you cause you know what?
I dont wanna give a damn about you anymore! You can do all you want dude, but I wish to not see you again! I hope you do understand because I've been strong too long and I'm not gonna break down ~
I'm ego. No kidding, But I've lowered down my ego before to let you explain but your ego is to0 big! so i got nothing out of it. So hey, I'm not gonna lower down my ego ever again!
I dont hate you. Honestly i dont, But I just dont wanna know you anymore.
Just to let you know that you have brought bitter and sweet memories in my life and I'll never forget what you have done, But I wan to forget you. Have a happy life. May you do good in Mekkah~
May fate fares you better~
signing out:
Jo
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