Boys Are Stupid

     

Oh ya.... Throw everything you can at them. Memang potassium cyanide la punya laki! outrageous! spirogyra asbestos! sungguh patut kena tembak je dengan M16! Tanam hidup!!

You guys have no right or whatsoever untuk comment pasal kitorang!
Korang dah buat kawan aku nangis and korang will pay for it! CASH!

Kalau tak tau apa-apa. Jangan sesuke hati sesedap oren je nak mengomen! Tak puas hati cakap face to face la bro!

apa cer cakap belakang!

apa ingat korang tu bagus sangat ke ??
Kitorang bukan tak kawan dengan orang lain la! Tak kan la kitorang nak kawan dengan orang lain tu sampai neraka???

Fail logic la korang ni!

Hampeh!

you know hampeh???

Kalaiu ikutkan hati aku nak simbah asid je kat korang!

macam nak humban dari KLCC je.

biar puas hati aku! 

ni kira okay lagik la aku ada iman tau!

I hate guys! I hate you guys! 

Tahniah!

Cause you managed to push me to the limit.

yeah

you  did.

I hate you.

I.really.do

bengang.tahap.putus.fius

out,

Jo

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Oh yeah.. and gambaq di atas tersangatlah comeyyylll~
and I am once again rambling nonsense.
Cuti ni. Sungguhlah tak terasa semangat nak buat holiday package macam dulu-dulu.
O ya..the thought of spending next week just for add maths simply kills me.


O' dear Add Math, my truly,
beloved one that have made me tingly,
and confused simultaneously,
leaving me puzzled and dizzy,
wondering why you are the way you are,
how to get closer to you,
before you run afar.




Awwkaaayyy... sungguh aku dah putus fius.
Aha~ blame it all on add maths..
ya.ya. next week heading off to kota tinggi for Easy Math..
(garu-garu dagu)
Jia you! Tuntulah ilmu walau ke kota tinggi!
Walau perlu berkorban seminggu cuti!
Demi skor A+, demi Illahi!
Demi mencapai cita-cita tertinggi!


(okay..tonight is not a poem night. it is NOT) -_-"




                                           


One more thing. 

I.Feel.Stupid

Yeah.I really do.

Dammit.

feeling.like.a.fool.truly.

out,

Jo

*gulp*

Did I mention earlier that i HATE myself?

well. i do. i hate myself. and all that comes with me.

and i'm on the verge of breaking down.

Wahai diri. Sabarlah.

(dongakkelangitmenahanairmata)

:'(

p/s: everybody in da house hates me too. I dont blame them. I would do the same thing too. Maybe even worse.

trying to figure out why~

Sometimes I wonder though I shouldn't, why one earth am I born with such attitude.

I ain't beating around the bushes anymore. I hate myself.

For hurting the one whom I love the most.

Yeah.

Take a guess.

BINGO!

My mom.

Yep. I hurt her. Again. 

I should go to hell for such sin. Yeah. I should.

Aku tak tau la sampai bika perangai aku ni nak tahan. Even I'm sick of myself. And that's just sick.

So much for being a goody-two-shoes daughter. 

One day, I am gonna hit my head on the floor wishing I had changed earlier. Yeah. Manusia.

That's me.

Could I just say that I don't deserve a mom as wonderful as she is?

I really don't deserve her right?

yep. I know.

Here, I would like to say to y'all.. I love my mom so much. I love her to the point which I myself can't say. I shouldnt point the skeletons in my closets. I know. But I'm doing it anyway. I just wanna say that I'm a bad kid.

An ungrateful daughter.

A thoughtless human being.

And I deserve no kindness from people. 

I can't cry. I never cry.

I will not cry. Ever.

Ma, I'm sorry that I hurt you. I'm sorry that I broke your heart into pieces.

I'm sorry that I'm the cause of those tears.

I'm sorry that I can never be a good daughter the way you want.

I pray that your other children won't follow my black and dark path.

I pray that they'll turn out the way you want them to.

I pray that HE will always look out for you and grant all your wishes.

I pray that one day maybe I can make you proud.

I pray that someday I can be good.

I pray that someday I will no longer cause your heartaches and tears.

I pray.

Yeah. I do.

Na sayang mama. sangat. sangat.

Kepada sahabat-sahabat yang lama tahan dengan perangai aku yang menyakitkan hati ni. 

Thanks guys. Seriously. Thanks.

Aku nak mintak maaf kalau aku bukan lah friend material sangat.

I am all about weakness.

(senyum pahit terpaksa)

Aku nak habaq mai yang these past 4 years and a half was a blast!

No matter what.
Aku doakan kita sama-sama berjaya.

May we get through this exam dengan harapan Allah akan sentiasa membantu kita.

Yeah.

Hopefully.

Sincerely aku cakap kat korang. Aku sayang korang gilaks!

And to kawan aku yang lagik sorang tuh. I'm sorry. That's all I can say.

May fate fares you better~

ranting.nonestop.nonesense.dengan.rasa.berbuku.

signing out,

     Jo

ridiculous

Aaaaaa... I am out of words to say. seriously. lemme say that the managements of some hotels are ridiculous.

Ada ke patut dia suruh aku and adik-adik terchenta aku leave the pool.?? DUDE! Seriously?? Punya la banyak hotel aku pernah pergi tak pernah satu pon suruh kitorang leave the pool. I mean come on la. Just sebab tak nak kena buat maintenance lebih diorang halau. OMG! what the ....?? Aku punya la tebai muka menahan marah tau dak! Rasa nak jumpa manager dia time-time tu jugak. Kesian hang tau dok kat adik-adik aku! Felt like chucking you into the pool je!huh. okay. aku dah habis melalut. adieu!